The 3:00 A.M. Outlook

It's 3:00 A.M. and I find myself thrashing in my Renal Pathology slides trying to make things stick, and what better, more potent distraction than the seemingly grim outlook on life, career, and future as looked at through the pessimistically polarized prism of present dissatisfaction and knowingly unjustified fears of complete, utter, and miserable failure? I've told people repeatedly, and I've been told repeatedly, that life just has a way of working out in the end, but somehow, for some reason I just can't see it right now. Sometimes, instead of fears of complete, utter, and miserable failure, you get scared of a life that ends up being sub par, somewhere below self-set standards and ambitions and it's just as scary when so much time and effort has been put on the line. The obstacles are just too many and the premonitions too ominous for even an optimist such as yours truly to overlook... well they are, at least during a 3:00 A.M. last minute cramming session... I need my sleep.